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“I don´t know why you think that I care what you do in your life–I´m just gathering information so I can decide what I´m going to do, in mine. (12/11/2018)
The writer pauses; I thought that he cared. “So you aren´t meeting me for coffees because you care about me?”, he replies as he turns his head to the beach. “Yeah, again”, I reply as I take a sip from the taza, “I´m not sure why you think that what you do in your life has any relevance on me? I am just listening to see if I will be affected, in any way–besides that, I´m not joking, that I don´t care.”

I pause; that´s kinda harsh.

“I´m not saying that you don´t matter, or that you´re not important, or that you aren´t a part of my life–but, right now, I have things going on in my life, and plans, and I am listening to see if I need to change what I´m going to do.  How will I be affected by what you are doing? I do care; but I have to do something and that´s where my mind is?”

“But, I thought that it was an excellent fruit cake”, he replies as he pulls the platter on the table back towards him, “it was an act of kindness.”

“Yeah”, I reply as I roll my eyes, “it was a great thought–I understand what you are saying.  But, you need to meet me at my level–that means that you need to understand what´s going in my life.  If I was hungry, a fruit cake would be great.”

“I was up all night cooking.”

“I don´t doubt it.” I pause; I take a sip of coffee; I turn my head towards the beach and then back to the writer; I sigh. “Take it home–enjoy it.  This is work, I want to focus on the current project.  I got a call in the night–there´s a new planet that wants to cultivate a new industry–this time we are planting apples.”

“It sounds like work.”

“Yeah”, I reply as I lean back in my recliner and take a sip, “it´s pretty shitty–that´s why you are going to do it and I´m going to get paid.”

“This sucks.”

“Welcome to life.” “When are we going?”

“2 shakes of a lambs tail.”

“What?” “Oh”, I reply as I turn my head from the waiter to the writer, “sorry–I was ordering a drink.  We can go this afternoon, if you´re available.”

“I would prefer not.”

“No one wants to, really.”

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“Let´s roleplay. I´ll start: Hi, my name´s Bilta. I have no education or experience. I know everything. (12/9/2018)

“That´s not fair”, he replies as he leans back in his chair at the cafe by the beach.

“Life´s not fair.” “I think that you are being mean.” “I am”, I reply as I take a sip from my taza, “also–let me continue. I am the most important person in the world.

I pause; that was a good one.

“I…” “I´m not done”, I continue speaking as I set the coffee on the small wooden table, “I constantly have to manipulate or try to control others to get my way. I cry about everything!”

“I don´t.”

“You kinda do”, I say as I lean back in my chair, “it´s called crocodile tears.” “What?” “Yeah, don´t worry about it.” “Ok”, he replies as he leans forward and picks up his coffee, “if it´s going to be that way–I´ll roleplay that I am you.”

“Big shoes to fill”, I say as I chuckle.

“Hi, my name is “Stop”, I exclaim as the waiter rushes over, “I need another coffee–this is going to be great.” “No”, Bilta replies as he turns his head to the waiter turns around to leave, “I´m going to take the high road–I´m not going to stoop down to your level.”

“The view is better here–the weather is nice.”

“So”, he replies as he turns his head to look out the window, “did you want to talk about work?” “You know”, I reply as start tapping my finger on the recliner, “you are a one trick pony–that´s why it´s easy to beat you.  You always redirect the conversation away from personal matters to the important of work.  I can tell when you don´t want to talk about something–I can read you like the reports that you hand into me.”

“It´s just”, he replies as he turns his head to me, “that things at home aren´t great–I really don´t want ot get into it.  I would rather just let it go and instead focus on my job.  At times a distraction helps to move ahead.”

“That was actually pretty intelligent, Bilta.” “Yeah, I know.”

“OMG you´re starting to sound like me!”

“Yeah, I know.” He pauses; he picks up his coffee; he takes a sip. “This coffee is delicious”, he continues speaking as he turns his head to the beach and then back to me.

“Um”, I reply as I lean forward in my recliner, “what are you doing?”

“I´m mimicing you”, he replies as he takes another sip, “it´s annoying right?” “EXTREMELY!!”, I reply as I start tapping my finger again on the recliner.

“Welcome to my life”, he replies as sets his coffee down on the table, “now, you know what it´s like to be around you.”

“You´re being dramatic.” “Yeah, I know.”

“OMG you´re still mimcing me”, I reply as I lean back in the recliner.

“I never mimic.” “So let´s just talk about work”, I reply as I turn my head to lookat the beach; there´s 12 people surfing, 4 people sunbathing, and a dude selling hotdogs.

“Sure things, boss”, Bilta replies as he picks up his coffee.

“We have no work or projects now.” “So what are you going to do about that?”

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Captain Of Your Future

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“No”, HR says as she picks up the remote and turns the volume up on the TV, “I can understand what it must have been like.”


Continuing, “you can know a math problem. You can know a capital.  Theses are facts; these are tangible; but, to know a situation–nah, you can understand intellectually. But to know emotionally only comes when you are in that same situation.  You can describe what it feels like to watch the sun rise from the ocean–but, until you know the beauty of the start of the day in the sand as the first rays wash over you–you don’t know it. I can imagine what it’s like for you to be in school–but as a women taking classes on another planet–I don’t know what it’s like, not really. In this way, experiences are transferred clumsily through language, pictures, videos, but without direct experience in that situation, we don’t know; do we really know each other?

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A Daily Dose Of

What it´s really like, yo.

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You Have the choice to Understand What You Tried To Do >> And The Reality of the situation

  1. Test

  2. Observe

  3. Understand

  4. Change

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It Would Be This:

1. Open – I Was open to creating a new blog post to test things out

2. Idea – I Had an idea of how I wanted it to look (and with so many other blogs, I knew The Appearance I Wanted For it.

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Take Back Control

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So here I am at Café Praga off Revolucion in downtown Tijuana at 10:15pm. Writing.

10:15 is interesting. It also happens to be my birthday – October 15th. In a weird sense, it reminds me that I am alive. It reminds me …. well…. better to look forward. I wonder how I will spend 10/15 this year. In years past, I’ve spent that day dancing in the desert of Arizona, mountaineering in Peru, collecting souvenirs in Praga, with most recently a small party in La Presa on the outskirts of the city eating pinguinos y tomando leche.

It’s been about four and a half years since I walked away from a promising career as an engineer. I returned to the old office this past week to find nothing had changed >> not drastically. I lasted thirty minutes there before I walked out.

I left a career where people can be paid $100k plus a year.

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I feel connected in my neighborhood. I am able to spend my time how I like. It took a lot of hard work to get here.

I didn´t think the response would be completely for me–but the negativity really surprised me.


I figure that there´s other people out there in a similiar situation.

That´s why I created this blog.

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