Kate: On a scale of 1-10 how awesome do you consider yourself?
Jamie: 7, always room to improve
Kate: What is the major turning point in your life?
Jamie: I’ve had several moments – when I was young I was told the doctor’s didn’t think I would have a long-life, shortly afterwards I read an article about an actor dying of Hirschprung’s at 30, intellectually I understood it was irrational – but it created a “deadline” that pushed me to have a “complete” life – like I never dreamed of old age with someone, didn’t think I’d ever get married, have a family, kids, Etch… the thought of “what do I want to do for my “career”, the rest of my life never really came into play – take away a family, career, kids, house – what do you have to live for??? Being a friend. So it wasn’t until my late 20s I started thinking – Well Shit, what do I want? I said “Oh Fuck”, I could be around for a long-time HAHAHA what do I want to do until I retire. Repeat the same engineering project; do the same routine. It wasn’t until years later when I started building real lasting friends around mutual interests where I started to really change my mindset and consider – Hey, Life is pretty Fucking Awesome when you have people to have fun with. So one instance??? Nah. Several instances culminating. Learning of my friend’s suicide was the prompt to continue following my dreams; I saw the alternative. So while I do a lot of cussing, and can be direct – it’s because I’ve seen first hand and from other’s experiences what happens when you compromise – it’s not an option. I see no other way to live my life besides the way I am living it. Long hikes, bike rides, international travel, hours of meditation – they all have had an equal effect in shaping my beliefs, thoughts and actions. Every day when I wake up I choose to continue my life – everyday is it’s own turning point; success or failure, mediocrity with addictions or more with clean living. I’ve struggled with addiction all my life – so everyday is a turning point – towards the future or the past. I know the past – the future, I’m open/curious/excited/wondering/anticipating about.
Kate: Where do you see yourself 10 years down the line?
Jamie: I don’t think that way. Where do I see myself at the end of my life – and what’s going to get me there. In AA, NA, DRA (Dual Recovery Anonymous), I see so many miserable people living on will power – not acting natural. When I got my bike I just naturally didn’t want to drink or do drugs – I just have no desire. Maybe I’m lucky, I don’t know??? To answer the question – happy and enjoying life and I’ll do whatever the Fuck it takes to get there (within the law).
strong>Kate: What if I say — You are freaking Awe—Some!!!!!!!
Jamie: Ehh. I don’t think that way – You’re my hero. I don’t take praise well. Umm… ok. Thank you.
Kate: Should I tell the general public that here I am interviewing the leader of the 21st Century?
Jamie: I don’t have any followers. I prefer just to do my own thing – never tried to fit in or felt comfortable or successful seeking approval. Never felt approved of – but made peace with that. A long time ago.
Kate: What is the one word that comes to your mind when someone says — My life is not worth!
Jamie: Really, I try to tune out everyone – you could say I live in my own world, but more accurately I work hard to focus on what brings me forward in life; I have said that I tune out criticism and praise equally – really just staying focused is a challenge enough in itself. I have learned recently however that I like people that help make my life easier.
Kate: What is your biggest asset?
Jamie: I really don’t know LOL
Kate: Are you crazy?
Jamie: Crazy is a horrible choice of word. I don’t label myself – it’s a form of restriction. However, I can view situations as sane, insane. Naturally, I have self-awareness – I can view myself, the situation rationally/objectively and confer, “whoa, what the Fuck am I doing” – but often times I need to process to understand my motives – I can get wrapped up in following my unconscious mind and act on intuition rather than my analytical mind.
Kate: If cat = dog what will be adventure = ?
Kate: What do you mean by ‘ Making Ostomies Badass’ ?
Jamie: After the ostomy, I saw several people just staying at home complaining about the symptoms (which I concur are very real). Uncover Ostomy was the 1st person, Jessica Grossman, who made it “sexy”. I like the word “badass” after seeing a friend post a picture of her with the caption – “badass”. I saw the picture and liked the way it made me feel about this person. I said, someone’s got to do it – I already was jaded by the clean-cut, corporate, Bullshit, car salesmen, slicked hair, Bullshit suit and tie life coaching image and said Fuck it – it needs to change to be more from the heart – Fuck it (I live on disability). I have no boss to answer to, no need to sell an insincere image to feed myself – Fuck it, I’m going to use profanity and document my life (with the real scenario of failure). I’m in a unique position – 34, fixed income, no boss, who else gets the opportunity to genuinely express their frustrations, hopes, everything on their heart without having to cowtow to a single person. It’s not original to me, I have a friend here who uses the phrase, “radical honesty”. I dig it – it keeps me off addictions, keeps me moving forward, having fun – Fuck it. You have no clue how freeing, “radical honesty” is HAHAHA