So… I´m very happy in my life.
I feel connected in my neighborhood. I am able to spend my time how I like. It took a lot of hard work to get here.
I didn´t think the response would be completely for me–but the negativity really surprised me.
It´s like You´ve Got Hate Mail.
I figure that there´s other people out there in a similiar situation.
That´s why I created this blog.
It´s not about what you can do (although there´s links on the links page). It´s about going deeper–looking at the WHY´s.
“If you have a why, the how doesn´t matter.”
Start building a WHY in your mind beyond the superficiality of simply paying your bills and supporting yourself financially. This is important. Take a look at personal responsibility, also. This is not about you–look at how you influence those around you.
This is my why—why I stopped drinking nearly 10 years ago and instead bought a cheap mountain bike. Why after work, I would go straight for a ride around the neighborhood and Sunset Cliffs (near where I lived in San Diego).
It´s when I started to feel free.
It´s when the rush of the air in my hair as I pedaled my cheap mountain bike through the town made me feel like anything was possible.
In time, I would ride the bike less and work more–more on my mind through bi-weekly meditation sessions and weekends getting back into college for a Master´s of Business Administration.
I would drop the Master´s program with a nearly 4.0 after a hospital stay from overworking.
Later, I would be diagnosed with Chron´s disease and advised to have a permanent ostomy performed.
These days, I spend my time writing this blog. I watched Tarzan on the TV tonight and the palm trees and tropics have me dreaming again.
I want to feel free.
It should be noted that I am typing this on the cheapest laptop that they had at the pawn shop near my daughter´s house in Tijuana. It´s a Spanish keyboard (control+g for save) so the keys are located in different spots then my old keyboard. There´s also this key: ñ. My Spanish isn´t good enough to use it, except if I was to type manaña. Also, if you find yourself using a Spanish keyboard:
Control+k for italics
Alt then 6 and 4 for the at sign that you need for emails.