05 Jul Love or fear or to love fear
Yo, there’s basically two emotions everything can be distilled to:
Yo, is it out of love
Yo, or is it out of fear
Basically, anger for example is wanting love but not receiving it – wanting to control love and being upset when you don’t get it – Yo, TRULY, LOVE, FEAR AND CONTROL REVOLVE THE UNIVERSE
Well… if you know me, you know I like to offer another option, a fresh take/perspective
Perhaps… loving fear… AKA TO BE IN LOVE WITH FEAR/THE UNKNOWN/WHAT’S OUT OF YOUR CONTROL
If you read this regular, you know my philosophy in a nutshell is simply:
Vibe with life
I.e. let go of controlling the external by creating a long term vision for yourself and being smart with different strategies to get there
For example, a job is a means, that company you want to start is a means to an end, that girl you want to marry is a means to the end
Like some Bruce Less shit – you focus too much on the means and controlling it, you lose the big picture SHIT
I could complain, I’m not making much money with this – yo like 100k internet hits but jut a little money
But, instead (ok, sometimes I complain a little), I more focus on the big picture and am building one means (that I think is best for me) to get to my BIG PICTURE/VISION/GOAL/ maybe dreams, I don’t know
I LOVE FEAR
I love not knowing the future
I LOVE THE FEELING THAT I AM IN CHARGE OF MY LIFE (NOT DEPENDENT ON ANYONE, PERHAPS CUSTOMERS) AND IF I SINK OR SWIM IS UP TO ME
Yo, SUCCESS OR FAILURE????
My choice, yo. It’s FUCKING scary, it’s fearful to put yourself out there (to have your heart on your sleeve) AND I FUCKING LOVE IT.
So, yes, there is FEAR, like a shit load, but yo, I can swim, I can a little more each day.
Also something weird happens when you take control of your life – everything out of your control suddenly seems like, “Fuck it, whatever”, doesn’t stress me so much.
it’s about control, and
it’s about fear, and
it’s about LOVE
And we’re all wrapped up in it.
And If you think you are in control, avoiding fear, embracing love – YO, YOU ARE MISSING LIFE
I.e. this morning I went to Centro to have a quiet coffee and do some work.
Reality: first coffee shop was closed, second didn’t have internet, and my quiet morning included a parade of fire trucks down the main drag – of course, with their lights blaring!!! LOL
So I said, Fuck it, whatever, walked to another coffee shop, and along the way got a quesadilla for lunch, the Xolos (local soccer team is playing) and wrote a blog.
So Yo, I don’t know what strategies, I’ll use for the future – it’s scary as all FUCK.
And, I love it – having life (not me) out of my control.
So, yo, Fuck it, let go, vibe to this (go WITH the moment, not against) and start to LOVE FEAR – TO BE IN LOVE WITH IT.
It maybe the key to success, I don’t know, but MOTHER FUCKING REGARDLESS, IT’S FUN AS FUCK.
And, I love the fear, yo. The future may be unknown, but I’m not.